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Winter hung last year’s
moon low and heavy, mirroring round my belly, it’s glow reflecting across the
seconds of that nights birth, our fourth, a Son! Grace, complete, filled space
with the same touch of Holy as that moon. And I have been hushed in wonder as
life and love have stretched golden across my heart, through those first
fourteen jaundice weeks, as the yellow drained an unexplained gray crept in
with that purple ring round the perfect of his lips that scared his mama so, those
wondering shades of gray gave way to three months with not an ounce of
growth.
Those trembling Father’s hands
that caught you a full orbit of nights ago trembled through midnight prayers
for health and whole and a life to be lived. This night a complete count of 365 is filled
with the same glorious grace and you sleep contented, heart, lungs, health, vibrant
as the moons glow.
I think, you, my
fourth, just thought to stamp hard your mark upon my heart.
You won me, fully,
fully alive, every breath, the gloss of every graced gurgle, every tear lacing
down those cheeks I have kissed ohhh so many times. It is only you out of all
these babies that still command the nights, with your precious sigh when you
have willed your way back between my sheets. It is only you that I have carried
as in those nine months, slinged and snuggle against my heart whispering constant
your name. It is you my fourth with that generous way that has calmly accepted a
twinsy sister. It is you as we toasted
with chocolate and gifted but one brown paper package that sat calmly among your
sibling’s reaches and touches and treats with golden sweet stretched across
your smile.
It is you my son whom
I Love
Fully and Forever
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Your life has made the grandest of happy in the deepest of my heart.
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